Thursday, October 05, 2006
Job Hunting, Dream Chasing, and Fish
Fishing
The past couple of weeks have been interesting, to say the least. Nadine helped me to complete my resume'. She made it a piece of art. It really stands out! Plus, I had no idea that I had so much experience! I still look at my resume' and wonder who is is that it's describing. I'm surprised again and again that it's me!
It also helped me realize just how interested I am in working with people. It made real how much I love psychology, counseling, and human relations. I find it humorous and a tad ironic that I married a social worker. I love going to Nadine's CEU classes when I'm allowed. I love studying human services and relations. I love small group interaction. And for some odd reason, I also love business. This only re-enforces my desire to study transpersonal psychology, and become a private practicioner. That is something that fits perfectly into my being a record producer and musician as well.
Dreams are like fish, only not smelly
It took me a while to juggle all of my dreams into place; especially with my love for family, my wanting a ton of time with Nadine, a baby on the way, Jonathan's emotional dealings, moving to Colorado, and being financially responsible. It also took a lot of books and audiobooks to encourage me not to give up on my dreams and therein choose an unfulfilled life. I truly believe that giving up your dreams does you and your family a disservice. I also firmly believe that when it comes to your dreams, your purpose, you can have your cake and eat it too.
I've read too much about growing a business into something great and long-lasting, than to give up because something is difficult. It also taught me that prioritizing things in your life doesn't mean having to compromise and give up on things. To prioritize means to make a plan; to get things in order. Steps have to be made in order to see your dreams fully realized -especially when there's so much you want to do. That's what I do with bands as a record producer, so why not myself? So, I sat down with Nadine and wrote a plan.
Juggling fish?
Though I don't want to go into extreme details, I will say that everything has its place, and each things works towards the next. For now, I'm pursuing a managerial or case-worker position. With Ender coming in just a couple of weeks, and Nadine being home after that, my getting a job that I like, that pays the bills, and maybe a little extra, does nothing but help me move forward with other things. Keeping to our plan, by this time next year we expect to be well on our way to financial independence, as well as me having a full time career of living and pursuing my dreams. Nothing need be neglected, nothing given up, nothing shelfed indefinitely.
Beer-battered fish... Mmmmm
Needless to say, I get excited thinking about the plan and where it's taking me. Not that it hasn't been without its stressful moments. Getting a job when I've worked for myself for so long, or when the organizations I've worked for gave me complete freedom, can be a scarey thing. Also, only having a couple of weeks left tends to make it rather urgent. I still struggle with feeling as though I'm giving up my dreams, and have to remind myself of the plan. I still deal with depression now and then, since this can all be so overwhelming. But then I remember that I'm living my dreams right now, and it grows more every day. I remember that I'm not in this alone, and that my life is a holistic journey. I remember, and I thank God for such a wonderful wife, who struggles right there with me to figure the journey out.
